Why I don't write more

I was thinking about why I don't write on here that often. There are a couple reasons, but one big big one is this: What is often on my heart is often not appropriate for public consumption. Too many times I sit down to write and can find nothing to say to the world in general. Too many times I can't even say it to individuals (outside my own family). Too much of the time there are heavy burdens on my heart and nothing I can do or should say.

But, yes, brother, I have smiled today. I smiled when I saw a student for the first time in a month. She always makes me smile. I smiled as I joked about creating mother/daughter conflicts by showing her a way to practice that doesn't sound like practicing. Her mother laughed at me.

And I smiled last night after working out while listening to Michael Card. The physical exertion clears my emotions, and the music clears my mind.

But even when I'm not smiling, I have something better--the joy of the Lord. The only thing that can sustain me when I feel lonely, stranded, or just lost. I can't explain it. I guess it comes down to faith. I choose to believe God. I believe Him when He says He knows what's best. I believe Him when He promises that He will reward faithfulness, not successes. I believe Him when He tells me that if I choose His Way, I will never regret it.

And beyond that there really is nothing more to say.